Susan has a boyfriend now....WTF?

Lemme back up...okay so at the beginning of this semester, I met this guy named Zach Barker, he was in my production class, lived in my dorm, and he hung out in the lobby all the time like I did.He was cute, tall, and seemed really nice. So you know Susan, being all sorts of shy and reserved, I walked over to him and introduced myself and tried to start up a conversation...good lord i thought I scared the poor boy to death! he was really shy....but in time and with my extensive use of my feminine whiles we got to be friends and we hung out so much it was ridiculous...then the questions from my friends started,

"are you two dating?" "What's going on with you two?" "When are you two gonna make this official?"

and i pretty much just shrugged all of this off, I was having fun hanging out with him, he was really sweet and cute and a really good kisser. so i didnt really even care that we didnt have a title...oh who am I kidding....

IT WAS KILLING ME!

but the other day Zach and I were standing on the porch smoking and he accidentally called himself my "boyfriend" I thought my heart was going to come out my ears! But I kinda let it slide until later on the evening we were sitting on the couch watching TV and i called him out on it...and he said, "Well I meant to say guy friend, but it came out boyfriend."

"So you're my boyfriend then huh?"

"uh...uh...Yeah I guess....I mean, do you want me to be?"

I had to restrain my squeal..."Well I mean, we pretty much are already dating and we have been since the beginning of the semester...so I guess you're my boyfriend." I tried to say in my most nonchalant voice.

"Alrighty then."

and then we proceeded to go outside and smoke a cigarette because after that both of us needed one! haha

So yeah, I have a boyfriend now, but I guess its just a title, it changes nothing between us so yeah. But I am really happy now, more happy than I have been in a really long time. I think my face hurts because I have been smiling so much for the past two days....hehe So he survived meeting my friends, meeting my parents, and now he's my boyfriend...who knew me being so blunt would finally find me a really great guy?

I GUESS MY PRINCE FINALLY GOT THE DIRECTIONS RIGHT!

 *just a random poem i did for class...don't read too into this guys..I promise this has nothing to do with me...just thought it would be a good poem.* *but i do still wanna know what you all think*

CARVING IT OUT

As her dimly lit reflection
stares back through the broken glass
she wonders if her quest for perfection
is really worth this price.

She wonders what is wrong with her
Why does her story seem to have no end?
She thinks of how to control her future
To go upward from this downward trend.

She reaches into the porcelin basin
where her broken pieces lie
She contemplates whether or not it's even worth it to try,

She picks up one of those sparkling shards
feeling herself shudder as she does
but as she holds it close to her skin
---she feels a calmness wash over her.

The steadiness she has
as she carves patterns in her arms
she carves over the hatred, the pain, and the lies.

As she looks at her ivory skin- now speckled with a deep red
a small thought comes across her mind
Why is this the only way
I feel I can be in control?
Why does something that makes her feel so powerful
end up leaving her so cold?

Maybe one day she won't have to carve it out
But, for now all she can understand
is carving out the hatred, the anger, and the lies
With broken glass and razor blades
she keeps hidden while she cries.